Lady in a fat suit - in a swim suit.......

I did it, I put on a swim suit .... It's black, my thighs are white. 
It has a wee skirt that is supposed to help you feel more confident about your thunder thighs.... the skirt is too short to help much, other than to provide a distraction from the discomfort of being so exposed, by requiring me to tug at it, every other step. (my butt likes to work clothing items up to my waist).

The thing is, I am wearing it. I put this swimsuit on instead of underwear today - threw a dress over the top- it's a pain in the arse when I need to go to the toilet... but that's incentive to go to the pool... take my first swim in the last 10 years, in a public pool.  

Why? 

Why now? Why expose the poor unsuspecting public to my precious but disfigured body? 

Because it will help me. Yup, I am doing this for entirely selfish reasons. 
I want to help my body to heal, to work as well as it can under the circumstances. 
I am doing it so that when I go back to my physio appointment I can say I have done it. That I have added to my "not fat because I am lazy" dossier. 
I am doing it because I don't deserve to be ashamed of my body. 
I am doing it because the resources are there in my community, for me to use. Peer pressure, social media and the diet industry has no right to psychologically bar my access to it.

So today, like a normal person, I will take a swim in a public pool! My body will feel the benefits of being near weightless in the water, the gentle massage of the water,  the boost to my lymphatic flow.

Girl is gonna get her swim on!